YOU GOT IT
I’m gone smile like Denzel in Malcolm-X when they come for me
Sick of trying to be the head nigger in charge, you got it
I don’t wanna be the H.N.I.C.
I just wanna be free…
Is that too much to ask, not to be down to my last for once
Go pass go without having to go straight to jail
Sleep at night like normal folks and stop pretending I’m well
When I ‘aint…
Momma proclaimed me highly favored but I hardly feel loved
Don’t know the last time I actually “felt” a hug
Shrug…
Feeling like a kid caught in the act ‘cause “I don’t even know”
How the hell I’m supposed to feel, when my heart bled out a long time ago
Slow leak steady seeping since ’97
Can’t say this what I bargained for or even close to what I wanted
God asked me if I was mad, I said ‘naw I’m just disappointed
Told me I’m destined to walk through the wilderness like Moses
See from atop the mountain like King
But I may not get there with you?
Still just another deer thirsting for water at the stream
Guess I’m selfish for feeling my life should mean, something to me
Other than a friend, a lover, or a shat on baby brother
A father/uncle, a Sunday school lesson, bragging rights for my mother…
I’m gone smile like Denzel in Malcolm-X when they come for me
Sick of trying to be the head nigger in charge, you got it
I don’t wanna be the H.N.I.C.
I just wanna be free…